Frustration

Frustrations setting in, and it won’t let me go

There’s something going on inside me, and it wants to let me know

I keep feeling this irritation but I can’t track its source

The fact that I can’t identify it is just making everything worse 

I want to be doing something, but I don’t really know why

I feel I should be productive, but the overwhelm is making me cry

A sea of emotions is swirling around just simply wanting to be acknowledged 

But as I’m writing this, my feelings and energy have started to become more grounded and solid

The thing about frustration is that there’s always a reason why

Until you can identify the reason, you won’t be able to let it pass by

I’m constantly fighting myself on whether I should be doing more or less

But honestly, I always end up doing whatever feels like is for the best

Sometimes I need to be alone, and sometimes I need more nature

Regardless of the circumstance, 

When I go within, and meditate, the answers come sooner or later

Right now, what I needed was an outlet for my thoughts

My mind needed to process everything and review all the battles we’ve fought

Each time I become frustrated there’s inner work that needs to be done

I have to take the time to review each feeling and issue one by one

There’s a magic to identifying things that can’t really be explained 

It’s like when you can name the pains then that’s one beast that becomes slain

I know that I am in control of my body and the energies that I feel inside

That’s why I’m taking the time to go deep into my psyche and shed light on the things trying to hide 

My frustration comes from holding things in when they’re desperately trying to come out

I’ve been trying to hold back the anger that will inevitably come through without a doubt 

I get frustrated when I feel that I should be doing more

I get frustrated when I think that my work was doing better before

I get frustrated trying to keep the peace and be the better person

I get frustrated when I give things my all, but things only seem to worsen

I get frustrated when I want to do more, but my body doesn’t have energy 

All of these things have shown themselves and I’m just now identifying each one

Now that I’ve given them a name the healing process has begun 

Don’t ignore your frustration as it’s a message from within 

Sit in solidarity and meditate so that your own healing can begin

-Stashia Jeanette Avery 6/1/26