Well tomorrow is my mystery surgery and I’m not gonna lie, I’m a little worried about what I may wake back up to. It’s like when I had my colon removed and didn’t know if I’d be waking up with a bag or not. I don’t know if I’m going to lose an ovary, more bowel, or what. I’m having to think about getting my eggs froze during the procedure too and all that. I’m at this point so over having to deal with this over and over that carrying a baby doesn’t even sound worth it as much anymore. 

Idk, I know that I will at least get my eggs froze tomorrow while they are in there. 

It’s crazy bc I wasn’t even thinking about the possibility of losing anymore bowel after my colectomy, but here we are again…facing that possibility of having to get a temporary bag if they have to remove any bowel bc of adhesions. 

My face is so puffy from my blood pressure being high, I look like a triple chipmunk now. 😒

I can never keep my face “normal sized” lately. But I think that’s the least of my worries right now lol. 

I am so tired of sweating like a crazy person. All night, I’m dripping, all day, dripping..it’s out of control. 😒

I’ll just be a sweaty, puffy, blob for now, I guess lol. 

Anyways, I went and got a pedicure in hopes of calming down and not having jacked feet in the hospital 😅😂

Write more soon.